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Home on the Mesa

Muscles Like Secret Drawers
The rocks on the rim spoke to me this sunset’s roseate glow. I saw fossils—I don’t know if they are fossils—but they looked like fossils, insignias of prehistory, leaves and creatures marking the stone, and my little life became a speck. Spring wind carved rock into sensuous curves today as it has been carving rock for millions of years. A steady sculptor. I stopped and looked up, a precaution one must always take here. First, look at the ground as you walk, then if you want to look up, stop, or else you’ll tumble to the ground or worse, over a deathly ledge. I looked up and saw an anvil in the sky—a cloud resembling a crusted snow drift with a bellyful of peach-colored light from the declining day. In five minutes the cloud turned dove gray, blending its massive shape into the others clouds—the sky family blending into one-ness.

The wind sang. I turned and went into the forest Read more

Housekeeping My Consciousness

I have had a long, inspiring journey with New York City. Last week I met with the man who was my boyfriend when I was at Juilliard and several years afterward—my first ‘real’ relationship. Those messy, wonderful, confused learner relationships that don’t carry forward well but when revisited hold all the remembered passion of youth. Read more

The Importance of Women Spiritual Teachers

I wish the role of woman spiritual teacher (or leader as some consider me) was rahrah and shiny, but it is riddled with the same old humiliations that don’t contribute to personal humility but rather to a wrong that needs to be righted. I was reminded of this on the final morning of the SAT Conference when I was the only teacher not publicly acknowledged and thanked, and the only woman teacher. To be fair, I was profusely thanked by everyone in private, so I know I was appreciated, but this was not public acknowledgement. And the distinction is crucial. Private is not public, yes? Private is a whisper in your ear that you deserve the house. Public is a signature on a document that says you own the house. Read more

The Dervish’s Turban

The dervish’s turban has four wraps.

The first is  renunciation of this world.
The second is renunciation of the Other World.
The third is renunciation of the self.
The fourth is renunciation of renunciation.

Not a lot of words here, but an elegant, succinct map for a pursuit which could occupy the better part of a lifetime to undertake and understand. Read more

SAT Conference, Colombia

I arrived in Bogota Airport, a run-down, monster airport. This is a big city and not an American one. Disorder and dirt abounded, and not speaking Spanish was a handicap. It’s not true that everyone everywhere speaks English. Finally, after an uneasy hour and a half, I connected with my promised driver, a man holding a piece of paper with my name and the conference name on it, which would have to suffice in terms of trust. I got in a shiny black SUV and we muscled through the snarl of rush hour Holy Week traffic. Read more

It’s an Inside Job

He’s got that blue collar presentation: sturdy work jacket with ‘Bill’ embroidered on the right chest patch, the clean Saturday jeans, Brooklyn accent, burly body. I’m sitting in a camping chair out in back of Ric’s apartment building under budding trees beside a bayou drinking my tea. I like this spot. I watch skittering squirrels and Red-Wing Blackbirds. On the opposite bank, a black-and-white cat hunts in the rushes and reeds.

Bill and I are surprised by one another. Nobody uses the back. We both think we can sneak quietly around unseen. Read more

Magic Roll

I’ve been traveling a lot and, while having a Dancemeditation Room is preferable, it isn’t likely. But I’ve had plenty of space to do Simple Side-to-Side Rolling. This is pure magic! It completely refreshes my spine, hip sockets, and organs, and wakes up fascial communications. It doesn’t take much space, or a special space. Any relatively clean rug will do. I throw down a thick blanket that is clean and I’m ready to go. For time, this works at ten minutes but may seduce you into going a lot longer. Also, this is an excellent practice to do if you are a guest since it will not weird out any host anywhere. Very useful! Read more

Barn Floor Saga

Yes, its a saga.

I began with ideas and a gorgeous, ideal architectural drawing from Dana Bixby. I sent these to five contractors in New Mexico. Two were swamped, one backed away due to conflict of interest, one is still working on an estimate two months later, and one gave me a detailed, transparent estimate which, though fair, was so far out of range that I was very, very demoralized Read more

Sex & Spring Cleaning

As I was beginning on a spring cleanse, a friend wrote to me: I complete 7 years of celibacy this month—please have a cup of tea in honor of this milestone.  After 7 years, I am free of all past lovers, and there is a definite boost to my energy.

All I could think was that we wash our hair a billion times but rarely consider clearing our sexual channels. I don’t think women, in particular, talk about this option much. Sexless-ness is hush-hush turf. Read more

Tea Chat with David

David:
Hi Dunya,
Please recommend a tea that you love to sip that is just about always welcome in your mouth and belly.  I’d like to move beyond my constant coffee. I think the right pot and the right cup could help as well.
Thank you.
– David

Dunya:
Hi David ~
Ok!
These are all black teas since I know nothing about green except that a good one probably can’t be had in America. I had Taiwanese green once properly brewed by a tea aficionado friend and it was so fabulous that I realized all the green dishwater I had been drinking year in and year out was pathetic. So I’ve stuck with my black tea from Wendell in Boston which tastes as good as anything I ever got in UK where even a crappy little cafe knows a great cuppa. Read more